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If I Can Make It Til Four O’clock 🕰🕰🕰🕰🕰🕰🕰🕰🕰🕰🕰🕰 About four years ago, I went to Indiana for a week to spend some time with Mother and my oldest son, Kendall. I hadn’t been home in a while and I was excited. I’d not been feeling all that great, but when you have Multiple Sclerosis,…
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It’s Kade’s birthday week this week. It started yesterday, which was Easter Sunday, but I didn’t let myself dwell on that too much. We had eggs to fill and hide and anxious grandbabies coming to hunt them. My youngest daughter, Belle, and I got up early yesterday morning and cleaned and cooked and cut flowers…
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I have been reluctant to post lately. I write about what I think about and right now I just think about Kade. The reluctance is from worrying I might upset or offend someone. Or because I think people will just simply get tired of listening to my voice mourn. Tragedy scares people. Especially if it’s…
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My children went to a private Christian School for a large part of their lives. Belle didn’t get to experience that and Kyler got just a few years. Kendall and Kade got the most. Kendall was in the fifth grade when Kade started preschool. The school was in the same building as our church, which…
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Kade had colic beginning at about six weeks old until he was nearly four months old. You could set your watch by it. He started screaming at 6:00 pm and stopped at 9:00 pm. Every night. It scared Billy Don and I so badly when it started, we thought something must be terribly wrong with…
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I’m going to be writing a series about Kade. About his life. About all of the signs I missed that his brain was wired wrong. About all toxic things he had to go through. This will most likely be uncomfortable to read at times. But his story deserves to be told and I deserve the…
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I have written a few times about what I’m going through in my life right now. Dealing with my son’s shocking death is overwhelming, at best. I’m desperately hanging on to the corner of Jesus’s robe, just begging for relief. I speak of my faith. But something else keeps belly crawling in. I was going…
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We made the decision early on that Christmas would be super different this year because of the COVID situation. We decided to forgo the big, traditional gatherings we usually have. We have several ‘Christmas’ days to accommodate everyone’s schedules. We chose a long time ago to be the ‘easy’ house when it came to when…
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Today has been a bad day. I have bad days a lot, but today has been a doozy. 😳 Yesterday I finally started Christmas shopping. I can’t buy for Kade this year, so we need to camp out there a minute. I was sending out a group text and because I have so many kids…
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When I found out about Kade, when they said the words, “This is not survivable”, I passed out. I don’t remember anything between those anguishing words and being on the hospital floor, a nurse putting a pillow under my head and someone, seemingly far off, asking me if I knew my name. I remember saying,…
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