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Doubt
I have written a few times about what I’m going through in my life right now. Dealing with my son’s shocking death is overwhelming, at best. I’m desperately hanging on to the corner of Jesus’s robe, just begging for relief. I speak of my faith. But something else keeps belly crawling in. I was going…
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Geography
2020 was a booger. I said booger instead of a string of curse words because I’ve been asking God to help me tame my tongue. There are days when I think the only way that will be accomplished is if He pulls it out. I have a flair for dirty words and I like to…
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Christmas
We made the decision early on that Christmas would be super different this year because of the COVID situation. We decided to forgo the big, traditional gatherings we usually have. We have several ‘Christmas’ days to accommodate everyone’s schedules. We chose a long time ago to be the ‘easy’ house when it came to when…
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and it doesn’t really feel like Christmas at all…..
Today has been a bad day. I have bad days a lot, but today has been a doozy. 😳 Yesterday I finally started Christmas shopping. I can’t buy for Kade this year, so we need to camp out there a minute. I was sending out a group text and because I have so many kids…
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Hope In Incredible Loss
When I found out about Kade, when they said the words, “This is not survivable”, I passed out. I don’t remember anything between those anguishing words and being on the hospital floor, a nurse putting a pillow under my head and someone, seemingly far off, asking me if I knew my name. I remember saying,…
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Kadey
I’ve never been a parent with my head in the sand. I was never a parent that blamed others for my children’s shortcomings and stuck-on-stupid moments. In fact, if you will ask my children, they will tell you that any time they were in trouble over something, I considered it ALL of their responsibility, not…
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Sydney’s Shoes
………for the girls Once upon a time there was a little girl, her name was Sydney Claire. She had hair the color of corn silk and eyes the color of a chocolate bar. Her smile was quick and bright and everyone was drawn to her. She loved her family, she loved playing on her farm,…
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Molly
Belle is 18 now. Newly eighteen. When she was 6, her father and I separated. After twenty four years, our family was irrevocably broken. I didn’t pray with much faith back then. However, Belle was inconsolable most of the time and I needed a miracle, so I asked for a Shih tzu. Often when adults…
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Least Mentality
“At least I’m not……” How many of your children have said that?How many husbands or wives?How many students? “At least I’m not acting like Karen”“At least I’m not doing drugs”“At least I’m not pregnant”“At least I’m not …….” Or “At least I’m passing”“At least I’m trying”“At least I showed up for work”“At least i don’t…
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I want to shine
Until about a year and a half ago, I’d never felt true peace. I’d never felt true joy I’d had joyful moments in my life. I’d been happy. But that’s not what I mean. I mean, just the calmest, settled feeling that things are okay. It’s work feeling like that. It’s something I have to…
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