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Adventure awaits
I too sat down, laying the spear between us, and tried to explain how I came to Pellucidar, and wherefrom, but it was as impossible for him to grasp or believe the strange tale I told him as I fear it is for you upon the outer crust to believe in the existence of the…
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My coffee ritual
I too sat down, laying the spear between us, and tried to explain how I came to Pellucidar, and wherefrom, but it was as impossible for him to grasp or believe the strange tale I told him as I fear it is for you upon the outer crust to believe in the existence of the…
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Tropical paradise
I too sat down, laying the spear between us, and tried to explain how I came to Pellucidar, and wherefrom, but it was as impossible for him to grasp or believe the strange tale I told him as I fear it is for you upon the outer crust to believe in the existence of the…
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Screaming for just a second
I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis eight years ago. I’m now fifty-seven and I feel like I’m so much older physically. I’m pissed about this today. Most days my mind is filled with so much other nonsense that I just trod along like some old fat mare, chasing the carrot in front of my nose,…
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Hang on
It’s hard for me to not be in that spot sometimes. Do you ever want to give up? Just quit. Pray for the peace of darkness. Waiting impatiently on oblivion? I have gotten out of any sort of habit of working on my relationship with God. When things go awry, I cry out for help…
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Three years
It doesn’t get any easier with time. Right now, it’s harder. The time since I last saw Kade is so huge. It’s this abysmal, black hole that has no bottom or top. It’s the ginormous void that is desperate to be filled. The knowledge that it never will be is overwhelming. I know a lot…
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Waiting on the mail
When Kade left, he was an organ donor and we were so thankful he was able to gift so many people a different way of life. From the moment they told us he would not survive this catastrophe event, I clung on to him being a donor with everything I had. At the time, it…
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Something To Be Thankful For
A cancelled then postponed adventure, a scare, a trip to the hospital, a miracle. Yes, it’s 3:03 in the morning and I’m up. Steroids. I tossed and turned until I got up and gave sleep up for right now. The fireplace has the living room cozy, along with my new snowflake Vera Bradley blanket I…
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Anxiety and Grief
I’ve been super quiet on here for a few months. I’ve not had the strength or tenacity to put anything out here. I’ve been in grief counseling since about a month after Nathan Kade Soden left. We have worked hard. I have worked hard. I have leaned on God when I thought I might not…
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