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It’s hard for me to not be in that spot sometimes. Do you ever want to give up? Just quit. Pray for the peace of darkness. Waiting impatiently on oblivion? I have gotten out of any sort of habit of working on my relationship with God. When things go awry, I cry out for help…
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It doesn’t get any easier with time. Right now, it’s harder. The time since I last saw Kade is so huge. It’s this abysmal, black hole that has no bottom or top. It’s the ginormous void that is desperate to be filled. The knowledge that it never will be is overwhelming. I know a lot…
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When Kade left, he was an organ donor and we were so thankful he was able to gift so many people a different way of life. From the moment they told us he would not survive this catastrophe event, I clung on to him being a donor with everything I had. At the time, it…
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A cancelled then postponed adventure, a scare, a trip to the hospital, a miracle. Yes, it’s 3:03 in the morning and I’m up. Steroids. I tossed and turned until I got up and gave sleep up for right now. The fireplace has the living room cozy, along with my new snowflake Vera Bradley blanket I…
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I’ve been super quiet on here for a few months. I’ve not had the strength or tenacity to put anything out here. I’ve been in grief counseling since about a month after Nathan Kade Soden left. We have worked hard. I have worked hard. I have leaned on God when I thought I might not…
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There is a supernatural peace that helps me to weather a storm. It doesn’t take the storm, rather, it allows my storm to be manageable and leave me sane. This supernatural peace helps me to heal, to resist, to relax. It bathes a nightmare in manageability. People who don’t have faith in the Helper, Jesus…
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I woke up in the middle of the night, a super common occurrence, and went to YouTube. That’s my go-to when the house is quiet and my thoughts are loud. I’ve begun listening to for King and Country, their Christmas show. It’s full of worship and percussion and pretty men. I mean, what’s not to…
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